i don't want to be private.
i've googled up and down to find some way to block her IP address, but the only solution is to get my own .com and then block her. WTF? come on, blogger! add a fucking button!
i've thought about going public again. i mean, fuck it if she's reading. i don't have to ever talk to her again...i can pretend she doesn't even exist. i did write her an email, basically that i know she snooped on my computer, and not only found and read this blog, but WENT HOME and continued to do so...major betrayal. i told her i couldn't continue the relationship. so, she knows the deal. and no, she didn't write back. coward.
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ivf update: everything going swimmingly. plenty of nice follicles. lining, plump. retrieval, probably wednesday. i'm really doing it. holy fucking shit.
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just like having a baby after infertility, the alive baby doesn't erase anything. you're not even more *grateful* or *patient* because of everything you suffered to GET the baby. in fact, you're probably really, really fucked up about it. i have to assume it's the same after a dead baby. infertility AFTER a dead baby? i already know i'm fucked. my reproductive life has really, REALLY sucked.
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one (1) alive baby won't heal me. an alive baby won't heal me. an alive baby won't heal me...
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- charmedgirl
- after 4 years of infertility, IVF, and a high-risk yet successful triplet pregnancy, we thought one baby girl created the old-fashioned way would be a piece of cake; that's not what happened. we miss you paige...stillborn at 40 weeks on her due date, 9.9.07.
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15 comments:
Hey, I think there's a way with statcounter to block an IP address. It's free to sign up, and then there's a place to search for the IP, etc. and I'm pretty sure a way to block it. I can try and find out more if you'd like.
I had to sign up when I got anon'd, and Antigone said she'd help if I ever wanted to look up who it was, etc. Obviously she's a bit busy now, but she might be able to help too -- especially with a situation like this.
I'm really sorry. And thinking of you this week! Whee!
I know the whole private thing sucks. Even for a reader cuz you won't alert on my google reader which has made me really lazy and I forget that I have to check for posts from private blogs. It's funny tho I was thinking this a.m. after you wrote at my place that it would be cool if you could just block her IP address but I thought it might be too hard. I know Antigone has a magical way with tracking folks down via IP's I wanted to ask her to help me with one b/c I think I may have a similar situation going on at my place with someone from my husbands family whcih would really make me want to kill if true. But I can't bug her now cuz little Percy has arrived.
As for the GOOD NEWS!! This week, OMG, YAY! I'm keeping everything crossed for you Charmer. I hope like hell that this does come easy. You deserve it, b/c really, no matter how quickly it comes, it hasn't been easy at all has it?
P.S. I don't know if I say it right in my writng but, while the grief and the anger and the pain are not healed by a new baby, the new baby, holding and loving the new baby, that does make a difference, it really does. I just haven't found the right way to express it and I think I am especially mindful of the words I would use to write about it b/c so many here are still trying to get there. You know? None of it is easy, it just isn't.
Now, go get knocked up, god damn it!
freaking the fuck out. I feel all that you feel on behalf of our friends. We're almost there - you and me and them.
It does suck. I can't believe she didn't reply to your email.
Good luck with the retrieval. It won't heal you, but it would be good for the soul.
I have got no clue when it comes to blocking, etc.
Just wanted to say good luck this week.
And for what it's worth, I feel like being pregnant has allowed me to heal more these last couple of months. I know it won't change everything should I get the ultimate positive outcome, but I do think it's given me some hope back and be able to see the things that are right with the world and not just all the negative things...of course, my view is subject to change depending on what will happen in the next 8-10 weeks...
What a bitch. Post her email address so we can all write her and let her know what we think of her. I guess it's always the risk with a public blog. To go snooping on someones computer in their house is just downright low.
I hope you find a way to block her. Actually I hope she has the decency after reading your posts to stay the fuck away from your blog.
Yay on the IVF. Good news, fuck you could be knocked up soon. Yay!!!
I'm so glad that the ivf is going so well - but supremely fucking PISSED off about the neighbour....
been reading for a while but never stopped to comment.
well today i just wanted to say "holy fucking shit, that stupid cow" and good luck for this week!!
sally
Neighbors suck! Well, not all of them but ones like that!
Good luck this week, I'll be thinking of you!
Everything is just a waiting game now. *hugs*
Daymn-- I totally missed this before. How did retrieval/fert go?
And can we go egg her house?
I'm glad your public. Again. Stupid neighbour. Hope she reads at least this so she knows what a low life she is. I hope we've made it clear enough for her.
As for IVF, go rock it, baby. XO.
A new baby won't heal you, but I hope it helps. <3
glad to have you back
supremely late responding but if you still want to block her you can use
http://toolator.com/
for individual ip addresses. only thing is, her isp might have floating ip addresses, so it wouldn't work.
but for standalone ones no problem.
hope this helps.
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